Can't Commune Alone

A few years ago, my church and I had a falling-out and I stopped attending services anywhere.

The desire to live my faith never waned, even as I refused to share my faith. Most unfortunately for my stubborn self, God is persistent. I continue to think sermon-style.

For a time, I thought about organizing an informal bible study/discussion of faith in my local area. Ah, but where to meet? Even now, I am confident that a number of local congregations would offer space, but not everyone I'd like to study with is willing to cross that threshold. A cafe? Cozy but not private. Community center? Not cozy.

You see the problem. I talked myself out of it before I even got started. Still floundering, I spoke with a friend who has had a long and sometimes turbulent relationship with this same Christian organization. I'm angry with them. And I miss them. I confessed that while I didn't really want to do the Sunday morning thing, it's very hard to commune alone.

My friend sidelined my lame attempt at humor and reminded me that it's very hard to be a Christian alone.